I Don't Regret

For a few weeks now, i've been finding myself at certain times in situations that i've never found myself in before. When i did find myself in these situations, i understood what it means to be under peer pressure, and i seriously respected the girls that are able to resist the temptation of "fitting in" by having a boyfriend. I know...you're thinking "kj?? Wanting to get a boyfriend??" Yeah, well...not exactly :). However, I felt how some girls feel when they see other girls around them with their guy, with their friend (although these days, sadly, boyfriends are nothing more than an accessory to a lot of teenagers). I felt lonely. I wanted to have someone who would treasure me, do sweet things for me, someone who would want to spend time with me out of want, not out of pressure. Sunday night came, my sister and I were talking (thank you, Lord, for such a wonderful woman of wisdom) and that subject popped up. One thing lead to another, and the point of the subject strayed to the best thing it can. God. This is what i discovered: Having a boyfriend will come when it's time (i don't want to rush anything). When it does, that guy will love me for who I am He'll make me feel special, and yadda yadda yadda, but honestly people, God is the Best Love that a girl could ever have. You know, people in relationships only show everyone the good side, the sweet stuff, the sentimentalism, but we don't see the fights, we don't see the break-ups, only the hurt of the broken relationship.These type of relationships don't always work out...Jesus always works out. Jesus always forgives. Jesus finds me beautiful. You know, my boyfriend (when he gets here) could tell me I'm beautiful all day long, but it wouldn't mean anything if God didn't think I was beautiful on the inside. People will be able to do a lot of things for me....but they can't grow me a field of flowers for me, put a rainbow in the sky for me, heal me when I'm sick, be there for me, whenever, however, and whyever (yeah, that's not a word, but i can still write it) I need them, give me that special feeling of love, acceptance, and peace that only God can give me. I'm going into a new place with God, and it's the sweetest one that i've been with Him yet. He has been my Acquaintance, my Friend, my Best Friend, and now He's my Romancer. (which is, by the way, how things should go with a relationship) I've never thought of God like that, but lately, I've realized the reality of God being "Everything" :). When i gave my heart to God, I gave it to Him thinking of Him as a Father Who would protect it (which is exactly what He does) but I now realize that He also wants my heart for Himself. He's a jealous God. He doesn't wants me to prioritize and love another like I do Him. My God loves me :). He loves me enough to keep my heart for Himself until a man comes along whom He can trust it with. I wish every girl could discover this amazing and oh so sweet truth about God. The hurt that would be spared because they realized that being in love with God is so much sweeter than a relationship that was created out of peer pressure...i can't even describe the beautiful feeling that fills that void....God never ceases to amaze me. I never knew He was so full of wonderful surprises :). As Barlow Girl says it so wonderfully..

"They're telling me, they're concerned for the way I am living. That I'll miss it all, why would i think that God is that trusting? I can't explain all the words He has spoken to my heart, why I want Him more and more.I don't regret, choosing You. And I'm not ashamed that it's You that holds my heart. You have shown my ever-wandering heart what love is. What on earth is more important than to have all of You?"

Jesus, I don't regret choosing You...