True Love

As I gazed into Your moon, I wondered how in the world I thought that I could be in love with You! I am so young! I don't understand how You work, and You're much too wise and kind for me. I'm impatient, and not deserving of any kind of intimacy that You would want to share with me.
How can she be in love at 15? It's silly! She's too young to be so intimate with Him. She's too ignorant of all the things He's done for her. And let's face it, she's not deserving of His love! No one really is, but her!?! No no no...let's wait 'till she gets old enough to understand what true love and all that sort of stuff really is.

Yeah...that's what i was thinking a few nights ago.

But was it my age that was keeping me from surrendering? Could it possibly be...fear? Fear of what others would say if I fell in love? Fear of being different from my peers? Fear of being let down? It was all of it combined i guess. Satan got a foothold in my thoughts that night, trying to keep me from God's unfailing love. Being let down by others in the past, he knew that I was afraid of being let down again. Sad to say, I avoided one-on-one time with God since then. But now reflecting on it, the ones who may think that 15 years old is too young to fall in love are the ones that are missing out, not me! While I know that intimacy with God grows as I grow, I'll rest in the security of True Love. I have to take that scary, yet wonderful first step. Yeah...it's time for me to let go and let God. Exciting huh? :)