Can We Be More than Friends?

You're a friend that i've known for a while now,
When you come into a room, i'm like, "wow!"
Whenever you praise my work, i'm ecstatic.
When you're not so thrilled, i feel i've missed it.
I love how you don't think me strange,
You remind me i'm who i am and that's how i was made.
But sometimes, to you i'm not that true.

On a normal basis, this is what i do...
I want to spend a whole day with you
But sometimes i leave and decide to drop you.
But when look back and catch your eye,
I hesitate..but then someone else catches my eye.
I get distracted.

I'll say "i'll be there"
I'll say, "i care."
Then i don't show.
Why, i don't know.
So many times i've told you "i'll, do this,"
Then i don't..or maybe i won't.
Maybe something came up,
Or maybe i gave up
But i never did it.
The guilt! How i've tried to be rid of it.

I've told lots of people of how much i like you,
But how it's like my feelings always change for you.
And i don't understand why, after all you've done for me.
In fact,
Though i wasn't there, i heard a story
Of how there was a man really close to you...
I guess you could say he was a part of you.
One day you searched me up, when i was in trouble.
And you sent him down into the rubble,
Though he was like your best friend, you gave him up for me.
He died for me.
And since he was such a part of you,
You felt the pain when His life was through.
When after i found out,
I shed a tear,
And around April (His memorial), every year
I remember it again, and shed another tear.
But sometimes, i don't see it as such a big deal.
Don't get me wrong, i'm not
Ungrateful.
It's just that i think about that other person, or other thing
And they become my priority.

But God, i want to go to a new level with You.
Not only did You send Your Son, but you raised Him up too.
One day i'm up, one day i'm out.
Sometimes too busy, running about.
But i want to sit down, i want be inside
Of You and hear Your voice, in You abide.
That's how i really want it to be.
Me in You and You in me.
I'm really sorry for disappointing You.
Will you take me back?
I'm ready to go steady.
To be more than
Just friends.