Ya, you won't understand this one either...

My goodness...How old am I again? Oh that's right...14. Why am I 14 again? I mean, there's so much I want to do, there is so much I want to say that is so far above my age. It says "let no one look down on you because of your youth"...well i don't have a problem with being a youth. I just don't like the fact that youth have "limitations" so to speak. *Sigh*... I will accept the fact that there are some things that youth just can NOT do...I mean hey, I'm not going to get married at 14 :) But in other senses, why can't I do what I feel I can do? In all honesty people, I don't even know what exactly it is that I want to do, (proving that not even I exactly understand this post either :)), but I desperately NEED to do something..something I'm honestly afraid to do. I don't what it is, I don't know why i need to do it, nor why I'm apprehensive about it, but I just have a feeling...so call me crazy,
and tell me that I'm way over my head in my thoughts, and feelings and emotions, but hey! Can I not be who I want to be? Can I not chase after my dreams with such a passion that i FREAK people out? Well if you think I can't, sorry, but I'm gonna do it anyway. I am going to just LIVE like I don't care. Heck, I only get so many years on this earth compared to eternity, so what am I doing with them? Am I making my short time on this earth count for something that will count in eternity? I'm going to do this...