Fight It...Again

Like a cloud you come,
Dark and nearing,
With rain to make me cold
And leave me with a heart freezing.
I don't know what You are,
But you hurt and pain
And you leave me standing
In the cold rain.
You have a magnetic force that pulls me to you
But your dark countenace
Makes me afraid to surrender to you.

But I almost want to get lost in your gloom
At least it's more real than the fake smiles
I see everyday on these tombs.
Just a room with a dead soul
I what I see.
No more love,
Only a sad reality.

But my heart! My soul!
It still has life
It's not ready to give into this piercing knife,
Which with one cut, takes away
Every drop of feeling in my veins.

I feel pain, i feel disappointment
I feel hurt i feel discouragment,
But I feel joy, and i feel peace
When God meets with me, my fears decrease.
And my heart, on God's hands
Is sewn back into one piece.
And my soul, like a captive, is released.

I can't close up,
I can't give in
I was put in this battle
To fight and win...