Facebookless

On Sunday afternoon, I decided to deactivate my account on facebook for several reasons. First and foremost, I cannot tell you how much work I have had to do this week (and it's only Tuesday!) and exams are coming up very fast, so to put my full concentration on studying, i am not on facebook this week. Secondly, I'm tired of spending my whole afternoon sitting at the computer, editing pictures, and doing random who knows what things on facebook (which could get me into trouble, (as Proverbs says "An idle mind is the devil's workshop"). Thirdly (and this is something i haven't anyone, so only those of you who are interested enough to read my blog will know this), but sometimes i think I'm "too easy" to get to. I mean..for people to get in touch with me, they just need to click on or two buttons and type something short (or long, depending on who it is and how they're related to me) and that's it. Now, don't get me wrong, technology these days is pretty amazing stuff, so i can't blame people for having it easy..but what i really want to know is "who are my FRIENDS?" Who is interested enough to go the extra mile to see how my week was without reading my status message and so on and so forth when they see me? Let's give an example. I have these two particularly awesome friends. The first one is Christen. Now, Christen's facebook has stopped working on her computer for some odd reason, but even when she was on facebook, she sat down with me, talked to me, laughed with me and wanted to get to know me in person. She would check up on me from time to time on facebook, but even now when she's not on facebook, nothing's changed. She still loves me, and makes an effort to know me. That's a true friend. The second person is one that you all have to know by now, and that's Gee. See, the thing about Gee, is that even though we may chat every other day, when we do meet up at some random point, he still acts the big brother part and wants to know what i meant by this poem, or why i said this in my status message. Now if i haven't mentioned you who are reading this, and you do this, don't be offended :) i'm just giving the examples of the first two that came to my mind. Anyway, that's what i want to know. Who REALLY wants to see how I am? Who REALLY wants to know what random things i did this week. To be honest, I feel kind of lonely in my little world, because not only being facebookless, but phoneless, contact with the outside world is kinda rare. But I'm also purposely putting myself in this situation so that I can see for myself "How much more do I rely on my friends, than I do God?" It is SO easy to put my friends before God. It's so easy to run to my friends and cry on their shoulder and ask them for advice, before I even get in touch with God. I need to just figure what I need and what i don't need, and WHO i need and don't need in my life.
You know, as I was in the presence of God on Sunday, these words just came to my mind "Even when you didn't love me, I still loved you. When you weren't faithful to me, I still watched out of you. When you didn't think you needed help, I still stayed by your side." God just showed me that through every season of my life, He was still there. I was so...i guess you could say a mixture of ashamed, touched, and broken in His presence. I don't even know what happened, but God's hand of mercy just reached out to me and welcomed me into His warm embrace. God is a pretty cool Guy, and i don't know what i'd do without Him...Ok, that was kinda incoherent, but this is my blog, so hey :)....But yeah...if you were wondering why i left facebook this week...well now you know :)