A Lot to Say

Do you remember when you felt (if you've experienced this) that your innocence was taken away? When you were no longer naive to things that never once entered your mind before? I have hit a certain time in my life when different circumstances and people have come into my life and opened my eyes to a whole new world. A world that i wish I could shut my eyes to again and keep living on in my own. It's felt like it's all come on at once, and oh, it's hurt. It's hurt to see how much filth there is all around me, and for the first time in a long time, I thanked God for keeping me covered. So many times we're not satisfied with where we're at in life -more often than not- and we think that the opposite of where we're at is where life really is. Ha! Gosh, how God has showed me that where I am NOW is where He PUT me. Whatever you're going through in life is preparing you for what's ahead.

It's amazing how God plans our lives. It's amazing how the smallest details all come together that couldn't have happened by chance. For example, there's a girl that moved to our neighborhood recently, who's my age, and a Muslim. We're forming a friendship, and i can't tell you how much it's challenged me! She's very into studying religions and such, so she knows a lot about a lot. Thankfuly (again, noting the small details) I am taking a Bible class that's teaching proofs of inspiration of the Bible, and the existence of God and such. In club 8:12 we've been talking about our purpose (the Great Comission), in cell we're planning outreaches, in church we've been learning about the type of heart we should have for the lost...getting the drift? Almost everywhere i go, there's something that points to the higher calling, just when she's entering my life! This friendship has taught me so much in just the few days that it's been in existence. I've realized how much God is a personal part of my life, and how i would have no hope without Him. Sometimes when my friend (let's call her Vee..why i chose that name, i don't know)is telling me about stuff she's going through, i want to tell her "God will work everything out." I never have, because i don't want to offend her, but do you know what i've realized? I've learned that I can't be more of a Christian in one place than i am in another. Yes, there are limits when dealing with an unsaved person, but you can't let that change you. But back to the point. These instances have shown me how much i rely on God to be with me and take care of me on a daily basis. I've re-realized all over again how much He LOVES me, how much He WANTS me! I've learned that God isn't theological. He is simple. He is love. He is peace, passion, pleasure, powerful! He protects me, and gives me a hope and a future!

There is next to nothing in the Muslim religion that is about love, while Christianity is based on it. This is one thing that i've learned that draws a Muslim to Christianity. So I wonder, is my life showing and reflecting God's love? As i mentioned in the beginning of my post, I've been having a lot of eye-openning experiences, and i pray that through all of it, the love of Christ invades me, keeping me from getting bitter and hurt. But how I thank Him for doing so, and being so faithful! God is refreshing my life and my heart to where it wants Him alone. Though so many things have upset me lately, I am re-focusing on what is really important to me. I am joyful, I am at peace.