Needing Time

sorry i never stuck to what i said i would do. i'll still post them...just not without taking some breaks :)

I don't like forgetting,
I don't like offending.
I don't like conflicting,
But i tend to forget.
Which can lead to offense,
Which leads me to put up defense,
And, next, pretense.
And sooner or later..we might conflict.
I don't want to mess up
I don't want your impatience to build up,
I don't want to be afraid you'll give up
On me.
Please be patient, i'm trying.
Please help me, i'm growing.
Please understand, i'm yearning
To be a better person.

What i'm feeling today. It's hard to grow. But it's not an option for me.